me? what's wrong..

I tot i am strong and wld get over it in a week's time.. now i doubt it.. tot that all the work, assignments, projects wld make mi easier to forget and tie over the period.. but every nite when i jus lay on the bed tryin to sleep, everyting jus get back to me.. i guess i needa give myself a few more daes.. maybe a week more..

I noe i should be angry at the person and at the outcome.. but anger, i dun feel any; in its place, i have sense of longing and great disappointment.. utter disappointment at the outcome, and oso at myself.. maybe i always see reality in dreams, and pin my hopes high especially when pple give their promises.. but usually, i fell hard cos reality dun equate to dreams.. and fairytales dun happen.. pple usually tells me that im always smiling, always so cheerful.. and if the sky jus crashes down, i wld still survive cos of my optimistic nature.. but am i really tt capable? wat i see now is my incapability, or rather, inability to handle a relationship..

In short, im a loser in my studies (wif nothing to offer except a bunch of cold jokes and good ppt skills) ; loser in relationships; loser in life.. darn!