fated

i think its fated tt my life is not as smooth going.. hiccups do occur every now and then.. sometiMes i feel life really sux to the core.. be it previously in studies, or now at work.. or even in my personal life tt i dun wan to think back abt.. wat has i done wrong to deserve all these?

though i can sae when i dont do well in studies, its partly my fault.. but when it comes to work, i simply tried my best.. and do wat im supposed to do.. but when a change is being implemented, it jus had to go thru, no matter who and how many pple tt will be affected, no matter how many pple's future will be put on stake, and how many wishes and hopes tt was dashed.. all cos it was a directive from the top.. I think none can understand the hard punch tt the reality gave me.. how painful it was! and with the pain, its full of regrets! if i had not came to this company, and accepted another offer long ago, i shd have been earning a stable income since may! if i had not came to this company, i shd not have waited for so long for tt simple one contract tt only came a day before a reorg was announced! had i not came to this company, i would not feel so lost.. now tt i would be transfered out of co to another co down few storeys!

but if i were to look on the brighter side, if i had not come to this co, i would not had came to know so many nice colleagues and to know such a nice boss.. and of cos shuai ge oso.. lolz.. it was afterall a good learning and working experience for me..

though wat lies infront of me will not be a bed of roses, esp without such a good boss and fellow team members to shield me from all the badies, i will jus had to accept all tt and take it in my stride.. it will be something hard for me to swallow and digest..