sleepless nights...

i feel terrible.. toss and turn.. jus cant sleep.. or maybe i slept.. sleep awake, sleep awake.. its 550am now..
it was horrible.. everytime i shut my eyes and try to sleep.. flashes of memories, be it good or bad, jus ran thru my mind.. and tears jus rolled down my cheeks uncontrollably.. no, i shant cry.. and i dun wan to.. cos most of it reminds mi tt i was jus taken for granted.. was not cherished.. it was 1 way liking a person.. there's no reason for mi to cry over all these.. but i jus cry.. the voice of his, the voice of him tellin mi tt he loves mi.. tellin mi tt theres a future.. tellin mi tt he bought a ring already.. and tellin mi tt he threw it away when i told him the bad news.. and the voice of him cryin.. it really hurts mi.. the tears jus came down.. cry till i sleep.. damn mi.. i hate this.. arghhh.. im really sorry.. i am a bad ger.. im so cruel, makin such a decision.. but im really really sorry.. :'(
yeah.. have made the decision.. shd be happy wif it.. yeah.. im happy that i did a decision, and i believe tt i will be happy wif it..
i like u, i have confidence in u, and i trust u.. yeah.. i have faith in u..