w.h.y???

caught in a dilemma now.. i dun wanna make a decision.. im afraid tt i make a wrong decision.. and i scared of losing pple around mi.. wat am i supposed to do. i felt so lost.. like no ones gonna save mi.. i dunno.. guessed no one except myself can understand how i feel... i really dunno wat to do!!

on one hand, yesh.. i told him we can onli be frens.. cos the feelings is not as strong as b4 already.. but when he sae
' u are impt to mi.. i will not disappointed u.. i will bring u into my life.... i really love and feel for u.... are we not meant to be together when i can see the future is bright? i see it bright cos i know i will put in effort to make us happy... i see it bright cos i have confident in us.... i see it bright cos i will make it bright for us, i will draw force from the relationship... i see it bright cos i know i LOVE u... and i see it bright cos i will be ahppy with u around.... i really want to be with u... i want to have a chance for me to make u feel love and make u happy..'
my heart begins to sway.. i not now unclear of my feelings.. i dunno wat to do.. he's painting such a nice picture.. but im not sure will it ever happen.. i dun wanna make the wrong move.. i dun wanna regret..

on the other hand, i see the sincerinty in him.. to put in his best in this first step.. i see some similiarities in us.. i felt happy gg out wif him.. i saw his strengths.. i saw his honesty.. and all the efforts hes puttin in.. but stil, similiarly, im worried abt the future.. there aint any promises made.. though i noe theres no use makin empty promises.. im worried.. yeah.. im paranoid.. i nid help.. i nid reassurance..

i really go no idea as to how to settle this.. jus feel like finding a hole in the ground and hide.. i tot i am strong.. but now.. i felt as though im gg to fall apart anytime..