Apologies...

Dear Er Jie, Liu Mei

I am truly very sorry to pull out of the program despite all that you all have said to persuade mi.. So sorry that I wont be able to join u all on Mackinac Island and I am sure that I will be missing out on the fun and new experiences there.

Think you all would have read the mail that i send to the agency, and bcc to you all.. tt's partly the reason which affect my decision to pull out.. but its also due to the fact that during this period of time (between the time when we filled in the application form and now), I realised that I am not at all prepared to leave so much things behind and be out of my comfort zone for close to 5 months.. yesh, i dun mind gg US for a holiday, maybe for few weeks or close to a month.. but i doubt i will like to be away from home forsuch a long time.. unlike gary, mingwee and maybe you, deb, i dun think I can survive out there for so long.. maybe not for now.. and I felt even more so as i listen to the international ger spoke in class today.. furthermore, its also during this period of time that my decision is wavering still, although i paid the money outfront.. as the time passed, i felt more and more sian, and when I saw how Kristin replied to our mail, I was tellinmi that's it.. im not gg.. so i guessed, its more of a personality, and my nature.. not that ready to move out my comfort zone..

yeah gers, you all are right.. we have tomove out of our comfort zone in order to experience new things.. I totally agreed to that, I attempted on learning cycling, bought a lappy so tt I can bring overthere, asked my mom to buy mi a warm trenchcoat when she go to shanghai, take on temp job this hols and even tell my dad's Canadian frens that i will surely drop them a visit when im there.. but despite all these efforts to prepare and keep mi enthu of gg, i felt otherwise..

yep, tt's y I made the decision of pulling out.. i did make serious weighing of pros and cons b4 coming out with the decision.. but i guess the cons overweigh the pros to some extent.. however, i do hope that my decision to opt out wontaffect your decisions.. and lastly, and again, im really sorry.. a thousand apologies..

luv, si mei/jie