weekends@home

listening to... i will survive - donner sumer

shd be doin some case reading right now.. but wif the tv blasting in the livin room, too much of a distraction.. so here im online and bloggin.. hahaa.. think i really have veri low threshold for noise.. wif the tv blastin in the livin room, family chattin loudly, and the piano playin over my head by my neighbour, i cant even concentrate to read thru a page of my text, though i tried to.. distractions.. distractions.. haizz.. so i summed up tt i shall sleep all i can during the dae on weekends.. and be an nocturnal animal.. hahaa.. tomato ger turned tomato owl..lol (okie. tt's lame..)

wat a hectic week...

okiess.. its fri again.. realised tt its a week since my last post.. as usual, been veri busy.. projects and cases.. i practically knocked out on the sofa the moment i stepped into hse everydae.. cos im really super duper tired.. and not to mention, the stress level hit almost the max after 325 class.. y?? cos of the fact tt each group are supposed to source for ad least 20 local companies to do interview wif.. and where on earth can we find so many companies in such a short time?? and coordinating interviews is not as easy as ABC lo.. think the tutor is really not understanding.. got really pissed at the wae he rebut back when yz voiced out his feelings.. which is wat most of us are thinkin.. i mean as a TnD tutor.. he shd be emphatic and understandin.. but i doubt he is one...

oh yah.. i attended my first ge lesson today.. and goshh.. i woke up at 530 AGAIN!!! cos tot the lesson is at 830.. but now i noe tt it starts unofficially at 9, it means tt maybe i can get a longbang to woodlands in the morning from my dad.. which also means tt i can wake up later!!! yippie yippie yay yay.. oh!! i think the class is fun leh, veri vocal and the tutor is good.. abit like teachin from the ee lan's style.. tokin mostly from experiences and i really admire the wae he can tok his wae thru.. pei fu pei fu.. mostly the things he taught in class strikes a close resemblance wif wat i learn from hr.. and guessed sales and hr are complementary of each other?? lol

went to pan pac wif gina and amanda after 311 today.. left b4 the speaker started to tok.. leavin elin and sini there.. went wif the purpose to collect the confidentiality letters and some survey data.. but since nana and mi werent appropriately dressed, since the mtg was sort of last min.. amanda was the onli one who went into her office.. well, i think things are lookin better now.. so Adl!fe Consulting, we muz jia you kayz!! and work hard for this project.. Cheers~

BTW, went to imperial treasure at marina sq for dinner.. as suggested by amanda.. the food there is SAME as wat u will get from crystal jade la mian.. jus 20 cents cheaper.. well, first time walkin ard at marina sq since its renovation.. and i shd sae the renovation did really do a great change to the layout of the place.. due to the time constraints, dint get to shop ard.. maybe next time bah..

well well, think this post is rather disorganised.. cos im practically typin out anything tt came to my brain, and my mind is on its sleepin mode now.. not really thinkin much cos its a really loooooong dae today.. but i guess next week will be worst.. everydae meetin for projects.. from the early morning to late evenings..

T.G.I.F

recently been very busy wif sch work.. now tt one of my course tutor is back and the announcement of 1 less exam to take, our course work has since increased.. takin 3 core modules and 1 ge this sem.. but the course work is real heavy.. for the core modules, i have 2 main company projects, 3 cases, and lots of graded assignments and readings to do.. luckily today is fri.. at least there's sometime for me to catch a breather and to catch up on my readings.. lookin at my schedule, practically everydae from next week onwards is packed wif project meetings, make-up lessons and gotta reserve some days off for client meetings.. haiz.. life's so busy =(

if only i can get myself into a hall, i guess it will be better?? lots of time will be saved from travelling to and from sch.. its really tiring and time consuming.. 4 hours spent on travellin a day is no joke.. though i get to drive everydae this week.. it's oso quite tiring.. the traffic during the peak hours is disgusting.. and i got myself stuck in a massive jam on the veri first dae tt i get to drive this week.. and all the clutch controlling made my left leg ache like crazy at nite.. but i shant complain, its wae more convenient than takin public transport.. however, sometimes i was thinkin gettin a hall is really tt good?? lookin at this week, its already week 4!! and onli 10 more weeks to go.. and i have yet get any reply from sao.. and the fact tt i have only 2 exams to take, it dun really make the cost of stayin in a hall, if i get one, veri justified.. hmmm.. dunno la.. rather contradicting today.. but i guess, boat reach bridge head auto straight bah.. hahaha

as for now, think have to get back to some serious stuff.. readings, readings AND readings.. sianz

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went for our first client meeting today... nothing much to tok abt.. cos there nothing to comment in the first place.. a fruitless mtg, in another sense.. got quite pissed wif their attitudes.. but there again, tt's life in the workin world.. all sorts of pple tt u gonna meet..

after tt spent the next 2 hours plus at coffe bean@ suntec discussin abt our project.. and after which went to get sth light to eat, and off we went to alley bar to chill out.. macam a group of workin ladies chillin out after a long dae at work.. =) the place is okay, but i think i wld prefer zee10 and indochine.. chatted for quite long, and drank a whisky red label wif ginger ale (did i get the spellin correct??), 1/2 pint of hoegaarden, and a jim bean white wif ginger ale (did i get this correct again?*blur*).. was quite surprised tt i dint even get abit of 'high-ness' this time round.. hmmm.. and im now stil contemplating whether to go CB this sat.. though i think i shd go since not to pang seh elin.. but there's sth tt holdin mi back.. not really sure wats the reasons.. the place? the memories? haiz.. dunno.. dilemma..

me? what's wrong..

I tot i am strong and wld get over it in a week's time.. now i doubt it.. tot that all the work, assignments, projects wld make mi easier to forget and tie over the period.. but every nite when i jus lay on the bed tryin to sleep, everyting jus get back to me.. i guess i needa give myself a few more daes.. maybe a week more..

I noe i should be angry at the person and at the outcome.. but anger, i dun feel any; in its place, i have sense of longing and great disappointment.. utter disappointment at the outcome, and oso at myself.. maybe i always see reality in dreams, and pin my hopes high especially when pple give their promises.. but usually, i fell hard cos reality dun equate to dreams.. and fairytales dun happen.. pple usually tells me that im always smiling, always so cheerful.. and if the sky jus crashes down, i wld still survive cos of my optimistic nature.. but am i really tt capable? wat i see now is my incapability, or rather, inability to handle a relationship..

In short, im a loser in my studies (wif nothing to offer except a bunch of cold jokes and good ppt skills) ; loser in relationships; loser in life.. darn!

scientific, spiritual mi?

why must grass be green?
why must skies be blue?

dint really noe the ans to these questions.. but the recent lee hwa advert which had these lines in their promotional video makes mi think.. these small details of life may not seem to be significant but yeah, it rather puzzles mi and makes mi wonder on my wae home y grass are not blue or y skies are not red.. and y pple usually sae its a blue blue sky?? hmmm.. but, well, i guess tt's the beauty of life, cannot be explain.. so learn to appreciate instead..

hahaa. doesnt sound like mi huh.. so scientific, so religious, so spiritual suddenly.. (as quoted from yeye).. haha.. but no la.. maybe mi too 'eng' on the trip back home from sch tt i think of all these..

nwae, tml is a public hol.. and it will be a long hol for mi since wont be havin any lesson on wed.. but guess gonna use this time to do my 326 case.. tt module ah.. no exam but got lotsa assignment to do.. and class participation really counts.. but too bad, i haven speak up in class for the past 2 lec.. sianz.. stressed.. the pple in there are so intellectual.. time to speak up tomato.. hahaha. but quite happy tt we got pan pac as our client for the project.. though i think it's not an ez project, but we will put in our best.. rite, gers? AdL!fe Consulting.. way to go! heheee.. and think im quite excited abt our first mtg wif the client.. gonna take a cool look at pan pac office.. and yeahh.. we will be lookin pro.. wif our blazars.. hahaa..

alrite. think its time to get down to some work.. after spending the past few daes on the 311 eBay case.. now tt the presentation is over, shd do my 326 case le.. have a great hols pals.. and happy 40th bdae Singapore~~

drained...

had a pretty long day today.. okie, not pretty, shd be VERY!!! woke up at 6am!! for goodness.. haven been wakin up so early ever since i stopped work.. woke up THAT early so tt i can be out of hse at 7 and to reach sch on time for my lesson at 830.. but i slept on the train on the wae there.. and quite surprising, met junguang at the jurong east train station.. i haven seen him ard for like ard 2 yrs??? since the marketing class in the first sem.. chatted for quite a while on the wae to boon lay where i waited for sini.. as expected, the queue for 179 is super long.. but heard from sini tt it wae better than on mon..

anywae, went for my first entrepreneur class.. tot it wld be fun.. but turned out the other wae.. not fun, and the course is super demanding.. other than the business plan competition, there;s a need to conduct an interview wif a manager in a company which i have to source myself.. and mind u.. its an INDIVIDUAL project.. this immediately turns mi and sini off.. we have enuff of contactin companies for the rest our hr modules projects.. and the tutor is.. erm.. bad.. so we jus left the class for good during the break.. and was contemplating which other courses to take instead.. for mi, i stood by my stand tt i will take a course that's useful rather than takin any course jus to clear my AUs.. and so, we approached the resort management tutor.. went to his office.. and woah.. he's the vice dean of the cornell-ntu master of hospitality mgmt program.. if im not wrong.. and we have to get through his secretary.. but too bad.. no vacancies.. and he dun wanna open up some for us.. =( so left wif not much choices of modules to take since there;s not much vacancies left.. we fall on our last choice.. sales management.. the course looks okay.. and from the outline, it seem to be fine cos think it sort of related to some aspects of hr... so yep.. tt;s our choice.. went to tok to the tutor abt the groupings.. and luckily, he's a real nice chap.. welcomed us to his class.. and quite glad tt sini know some gers in there.. and got into a nice group.. not that bad afterall.. really hope that i wont be mistaken for my intentions of gettin into tt class.. its purely on academic grounds and oso faced wif vacancies constrains.. hope u understand..

well, went to jp for lunch.. thks to elin who drove us there.. and back in sch for SM lect... haha. i shd sae tt i was realy in a veri confused state of mind after the lec.. all the facts and theories jus whizzed past mi.. i guess tt's called info overload bah... and thks to elin again, gotta longbang her car back admiriality.. which i jus concussed on the sofa when i reached home after sufferin a real bad headache, and super tired eyes on my wae back.. this the onli first fri tt i came across this sem.. more to come.. haizz..

on a lighter note.. i saw darius and jess today!!! jess cut and coloured her hair.. cldnt recognise her lo.. not tt im dao.. hahaa..

losing.. lost..

Today I finally understand the meaning and feeling of lost..

Hard to accept, but tt's the reality.. though i tried to be hopeful and optimistic, the outcome is still as bad.. and tt's the reality in life.. harsh and painful.. yes, the feelin really hurts.. but im glad i got a whole loads of nice beautiful memories which i cld fall on and i hope, frenship nv ends..

well, people, if u ever see mi in sch and not lookin alrite, jus smiled k? but dun ask.. jus in case..