2005 wrap-up..

was pretty bz these few daes.. wif work and some personal stuff..

it was quite weird to sae that i was bz at work cos my boss's on leave, and the rest all slackin away cos there's simply no 'government' this week.. but cos its my last week there, so tryin to clear all the backload..

i muz really mention that my group of collegues from gb is really a unique group of pple.. well, y do i sae so?

firstly, most of them are dog lovers.. out of the 9 of us there, the GM has a dog, think its the chiwawa, my boss has this dunno-wat cross breed dog (very nicely coloured and groomed fur), and my 3 other collegues each has a dog also.. 1 is a cross breed of maltese and 'hu-li-gou', the other has this pure maltese (a look from the pix, i think all maltese look quite alike loh..) and the other has a female dog ( wat breed, i dunno.. haha)

secondly, my collegues are relatively young.. ranging from 23 to 40.. and our GM is VERY friendly.. toking to him dun make mi feel very awakard.. jus feel like tokin to a fren.. and maybe cos of the age range, and maybe partly cos of the nature of the job, they are all very happy-go-lucky.., smiling and tokin cock everydae, making life not that stressful..

thirdly, i learned the real meaning of a cheongster.. haha.. i got 2 collegues, one is already a lao jiao, the other one jus started being one.. and they jus go cheong on wed, fri, sat and sun whenever they like.. dance like crazy, drink like nobody business.. and they returned the next dae wif stories to tell.. lol.. alrite, so sisters, pls dun say tt im a cheongster k? cos im not even one.. i only go cheong once loh! (not counting the 2 bashes lah..)

there are other more factors that make mi feel that my collegues are unique, but right now, i jus seem to think of anymore.. i did enjoy my stay there.. i like the place BUT not my job lah... its really bOring.. so im still considering whether to do part time (i guess oral acceptance dun really count rite? wats more, she haven tell mi the part time pay yet..).. and im oso considering the sch's job offer.. aiya, in short, i dun think i know wat i wan.. do i wan to enjoy pure sch/hall life? do i wan to get experience in hr field? do i wan to work jus for the sake of earning more money? i dunno!! this is so frustrating!!! but think 'boat-reach bridge head auto straight' bah..

alrite alrite.. gotta get back to writing the list of stuff to bring over to hall tml.. gonna be there to drop some stuff.. cleaned-up the place last sat.. i think i like the place (good environment, convenient..) but i have yet to see my roomie.. so, cant conclude too quickly.. lol..

okies.. 2006 is coming, and i think im lookin forward to the new yr, wat happen in 2005 stay in 2005.. will be startin 2006 afresh.. and i guess, i wld be facing the new yr wif a new perspective.. ;)
so peeps, happy new yr!!!

MeRRy XmAs!!~

jus reached home, showered and now waiting for my hair to dry.. so here im bloggin away..

to tell the truth, i muz sae this yr is one of the years that i really enjoyed xmas.. hahaa.. this's not really very surprising cos i come from a family that rarely celebrates xmas.. more of a traditional chinese family.. guessed wat make this year an exception is the presence of our rare Canandian guests, my dad's excollegues to be exact.. the meet-ups, the invitation to their xmas dinner at their hotel, the chilling out at esplanade, witnessing how the teenagers played wif sprays at the stroke of xmas while the uncles and aunties were busy chatting away.. all this really made mi feel the festive joy.. and to top all that up, i guessed i was kinda 'infected' with the holiday mood at work.. gg to work wif the surprise to find prezs on my table from my friendly collegues.. gg for xmas lunches wif them.. its really sweet of them to ask mi back next yr as part timer.. =) and of course, its a holiday on mon --> meaning no work!! hahaa

think next week im pretty lonely, at work and at home.. thinkin of askin frens over to my hse on new yr dae.. haha.. my rare mj kakis, how abt tt? playin mj on a round table? first time huh.. hahaha..

anywae, pple, do enjoy ya holidays.. Merry Christmas! and till the next post, take care!!

gOOd Day!

think anyone who happened to be chatting to mi on msn today wld realise tt im on a more cheerful tone.. yep, i really did have a great dae today!

to start wif, a simple msg wif a word of thanks was sth tt came kinda unexpected.. nevertheless, it brightened up my day alot.. and when i arrived at work, received a xmas prez from my collegue.. its quite an early gift, but i was quite touched with the prez itself and wats written on the card.. *it tells a great deal abt listening and observing* haha..

and to top it up, received several sms n msg from frens abt the release of results on my wae back from lunch.. and i was quite satisfied wif my results when i logged into the system.. felt totally.. liberated? its simply the feeling of reaping the fruits of labor, i shd sae.. not tt i got fantastic results to show off, no breakthroughs to tok abt, but the small improvements that i made from the previous sems as a whole was sth tt i was waiting for.. at least it tells me that my efforts that i have paid out to the several projects was not wasted.. and its especially this particular sem that i felt my whole sem was spent doing the projects, hr modules (full scale projects tt ran thru the entire sem), strategic mgmt(dealing wif difficult gp members) and sales mod projects.. weekday evenings and weekends spent on projects, and not to mention the late nights i spent doing the 5 or 6 ppts.. completely tiring.. but im glad, its all paid off.. well done peeps! however, i guess my grades wld be better if i have done well for my individual quizzes and exams.. nvm, no use comparing wif pple since there's only ownself to be blamed.. shall work harder next sem.. =)

okie.. moving on.. was pretty free for the rest of the dae as my boss was in meetings for the whole of the afternoon.. so there i was slackin my time away.. ahaa.. and on my wae back home, dropped by j8 to do some xmas shoppin and i was real surprise to see yz there.. well, he's temp-ing there as promoter.. hmmm.. lookin forward for the rest of the mth or yr.. the 7 sis pre-xmas dinner, my dad's fren's xmas dinnerm zh bdae dinner and maybe a new yr jc meet-up (still in the plannin stage though) hahaa.. but think i shd concentrate on more serious stuff for mow.. fyp meeting this week... heh

Lookin back, Going forward.. Thank You~

Year 2005 has been a pretty rough year for mi, not so much on the academic stuff cos it has always been the same.. no breakthroughs in my results no matter how hard i try, though i seriously hope there will be some miracles.. but i shd mention that i am pretty happy with the modules this past sem.. projects are really well done-d, considering the amount of efforts all of us have put in.. =)

Lookin beyond the academics, my life pretty sux this year.. acquaintances turn frens turn 'good' frens turn acquaintances.. frens turn 'enemies' to maybe jus project mates wif minimal communication.. haiz.. it really makes mi fully understand how 1 person, 1 decision can jus change ya life.. to the better or to the worse.. getting torn in issues that i have never imagine was sth that i dun even wish for in the first place.. but y does all this have to happen to mi? Tot i did make a good decision, but found out that the happiness was short lived.. tt's the cruelty of life.. yes, i accepted tt in watever reasons or excuses told to mi.. but nv did i think that my blur-ness , unquestioning and always-trusting-people nature of mine could be taken advantage of.. reality smacked right into my face again, and this time i clearly understand how ugly people can get..

Trashing away all that and moving on... i pray that 2006 would be a better year, at least not be a torture to mi, i hope.. since not everything can be smooth sailin..
Few things on my agenda in this coming year that i wish would turn out good..
- getting good grades , doin well for my projects
- truely enjoy my last 3-4 months of my uni sch/hall life
- enjoy myself in US (gosh, i will definitely miss the whole lots of frens here..)
- find myself a job when i come back
- meeting *him*

And of course, i really appreciate all the pple that have helped mi in a wae or another in this past yr.. and here's a BIG thank you to all of u.. family and frens..
- to my dearest family.. really thank you for being ard to support mi, nv giving up on me, always believing in me and giving mi the opportunities to make decisions on my own
- to my frens
wanting, zhihui.. u are my best buddies, gers.. really glad that u all are ard when i need someone to talk to, to advise mi and to go shoppin with.. u all r great!!
gina, amanda, deb, steph, sini, elin.. wat can i sae abt this group of wonderful sisters i hav?? thk you gers for tolerating my lameness, and there to support mi when i hit rock bottom.. glad that we all have pulled thru the terrible project periods for the past 2 sems.. lets jiayou together for the final sem!
boon, edwin, gy.. great frens that i can always find online to chat with when i am tryin to fight boredom and sleepiness at home or at work, also pple that i find when i need someone to hear mi out and to advise mi.. and pple whom i can jio for the rare mj and pubbin sessions..
zc, yz and rest of hrc students.. a group of frens who make mi feel happy to be with and be in this specialization.. makes me feel as though we all are 1 big family..
jon, kl.. my fyp mates.. thks for tolerating some of my blunt emails and sms.. hope u all do understand y the urgency in mi.. hope things will get better, at least for the very sake of the project..
lisa, neal, jolene, crystal, stef, naz, wallace.. the friendly group of collegues from gb.. really glad to have u all around and i really like the place! a super nice, happy and fun environment..
and to all the frens that i dint mention here.. thanks and u all are not forgotten~

Grey..

Grey skies, drizzling.. exactly how i feel..

.... .....

"Oh.. haha.. i expect tt actually, i kinda guess abt it already.. "

"how u feelin? angry? upset?"

".. nothing.. im okie.."

yah rite.. i felt like a fool.. it jus hurts mi so deeply..

but really glad tt u all told mi, cos its onli a matter of time tt i noe abt it..