in the comfort of my home...

haiz haiz... moved back my stuff from hall back home already.. so here im, typing comfortable on my own com, in my own room. haizz.. but feelin low now.. dunno how to describe the feelin.. jus low low lowwww!!!! arghhh.. dun wanna type anymore already.. no mood!!!!!!!!
jus some pix here.. from tt ktv, and cheonging..

venus gers.. all look so relieved after exams~

take2!

wif amanda..

mi.. blurblur ger.. =)

ready to go cheonging... =P

yippee yippee yay yay~

yeahhh.. the exams are over!!!! my freedom is here.. haha.. so i shd officially sae i hav finally come to an end of this bz bz bz, super bz semester!! so happy, so excited.. lookin forward to gg out, having fun, and lookin forward to workin ad Nike. though i guessed the work wld be quite mudane, since filingS is one of the job scope! - -" but who cares.. its nike!! jus do it! hahaha

yep, finished with the toursim paper yesterday, and yeah. i smoked my way thru for 2 and 1/2 hrs for the paper, and smoked out a 9 pages long ans for 5 qns in total.. though my crappin skills wasnt THAT perfect.. but think it will be able to bring mi over, maybe marginally, the passin score ba~

after the paper, i went back home, grabbed my things, bathed and out i went.. to ktv!!! though i reached there ad abt 3 plus 4, and left abt 7 plus.. its fun.. gina and sini were so power.. so li hai.. haha.. and sini seems to like and noe how to sing all those NOT that popular songs.. hahah.. and gini IS a radio!!! every song oso noe how to sing.. and to sing it so professionally!! woahhh..

after which had dinner ad mache and then headed down to chinablack. to start the fun for the night.. woohooo :P
drank 4 glasses ad chinablack.. voka ribena, ram coke, whisky coke and voka lime.. see, i can stil remember.. who say im sey??? haha. jus tt i ABIT high.. nid to hold on to either sini or steph when gettin ard the stairs.. cos im afraid i lose the footings mah.. den veri peiseh.. hehehe.. think the music ad chinablack was nice.. rnb.. but too bad, cant stay there for too long.. since the hr pple were waitin for us ad zouk..
so we made our wae to zouk jus b4 12.. and joined zhongcheng, ray, fangmin, yuqi, enshan, alicia, geradine and junie.. its a mini hr outing!!! yeahyeah.. outing/gathering ad zouk!!! we dance, we scream, everyting.. its sooooooooo fun!!! we tried to move to phuture but the 2 guys were not allowed entrance.. so too bad la.. cant possibly throw them ad zouk, when we enjoy ourselves ad phuture.. hahaha.. edwin aka yeye was there too.. but cldnt find him.. or shall i say, dint bother to.. opps! hahaha.. cos was too fun already.. enjoyin myself.. hahaa... so peiseh to all the 'i dunno's sms.hahaha.. and onli tt i realised today, while chattin wif edwin online, that we MAY be standin back to back lo.. cos we seem to be ard the same area!! LOL..
anywae, was quite shack after dancin for 2 hours plus, without stoppin and without anything to drink.. so our group decided to head home then ad ard 2 plus.. and i got a sorethroat now!! and my voice is so sexy.. muahaha.. but on general, this first time clubbing experience was fun!! really enjoyed it.. and i felt closer to the other hr pple too.. maybe this clubbing-bonding experience have brought us closer liao.. hehehe

alrite.. shall go n take somemore rest.. to dose stil studyin.. jiayou wor.. ya freedom is jus a few days from now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lookin forward to freedom..

yepyep.. felt much better now.. after a 60 mins sleep.. =) shall start to mug later ad ard 12am.. and shall step on my accelerator tomorrow and race to finishin point on wed.. hehee.. after tt, i shall have my freedom!!!! to all those acc pple and those nus pple.. jia you wor.. jus endure a few daes.. and u will have ya freedom too!! jia you!

im realy looking forward to wednesday.. maybe was too deprived in school-hall already.. have yet watched any tv programmes since last week(i think)... so poor thing.. =P haha.. have already planned a whole list of programmes on wednesdae already.. though i dint realy do the planning.. thks to the venus gers.. well, most of them wld hav already finish their exams by now.. hehee. luckily the paper on wednesday is a morning one, shall rush home immediately after exams..(yesh. i miss going home~) bathe and out of the hse i goes.. to cineleisure to meet the rest of the gers.. for ktv.. hehee.. and followed by dinner.. and end the night with clubbing!!!! hahhaa.. well suggested by amanda.. who start this cheonging idea rolling.. and get steph and gina all so excited.. haha.. realised tt we are not the onli group gg to cheong, gers.. haha.. realised tt zhongcheng and his 225 group wld be gg also.. woah.. tt's so cool. maybe we can jus have a mini HR mambo?!? hehe.. *excited*

well, tts aside.. i think i wld wan to go watch some movies.. think the last movie tt i watched was ms congenienty.. haha.. so here im.. lookin ad some of the websites.. lookin for great movies to look forward to.. =) The interpreter, Millions and Sahara (click on the links to see more abt them)

think The interpreter is interesting.. heres some short descriptiong abt the film..
Kidman stars as African-born U.N. interpreter Silvia Broome, who inadvertently overhears a death threat against an African head of state scheduled to address the United Nations General Assembly. Realizing she’s become a target of the assassins as well, Silvia’s desperate to thwart the plot…if only she can survive long enough to get someone to believe her. Sean Penn is Tobin Keller, the federal agent charged with protecting the interpreter, who nonetheless suspects she may not be telling the whole truth. Silvia and Tobin, by nature, see life from different points of view: one, a U.N. interpreter, believes in the power and sanctity of words; the other, a Secret Service agent, believes in reading people based on their behavior, no matter what is said.In the right hallway, at the right time, all it takes is a whisper to tip the balance of power.

and yeah.. jus chanced upon dis movie tt's gg to hav irs sneak proview.. seem really interesting!! oh man, its slam dunk!! take a look ad this site!! Coach Carter.. starring Samuel L Jackson.. seems like a great movie and the trailer dint take too long to load... as compared to others.. haiz haiz.. =) hehe.. think im all worked up over these movies.. hahaa

other than watchin movies.. i think i will make some shoppin trips.. shall be buyin some working attires since my PA will start soon.. and also.. buy my long awaited levis' jeans.. yay~
feel like doin sth to my hair.. maybe shall trim it and give it new colours.. hehee. and yeah.. i wana go swim and hopefully get some tan!!! maybe i shall jio wanting go swim together? how abt it, ger?? haha.. yeahyeah.. so many things to do after the exams.. *excited* okokies.. shall go read the tourism tb now.. hehe.. jia you wor~ =)

maybe...

maybe i shouldnt be in uni.. maybe im really stupid... maybe im too tired... maybe the questions were too difficult.. maybe... ...

tried to prove myself, but then again, i failed.. i think my intelligence level is zero.. no matter how hard i tried, theres nothing i can do about my scores.. maybe its the wae i go abt studyin tt's wrong?? i dunno.. consistent work doest help either.. i really have no idea wat i shd do tt will help mi.. =( maybe the wonderlic personnel test tt i did in class is true.. tt im onli suitable entry level jobs.. not those managerial positions tt i looked forward to.. though i tried hard to swept this analysis of the test aside by sayin tt its not reliable, its not valid!! but now, i think its true..

y is it so easily for mi to sae i noe the ans to sth tt's not within our academic scope?? y i can so proudly proclaim tt im better at non academic stuff?? but when it comes to academic studies.. all the discussions and class participation and stuff.. im dumbfounded and cld onli retreat to one corner and listen to pple tok?? yeah.. i think its cos im stupid.. im not intelligent.. i do not hav wat it takes to do well for exams. though i strongly hope tt i can tell everyone tt im not stupid!! arghh..

sorrie for this depressing post.. maybe i shall go n sleep.. and think of a better wae to conquer my next and last paper for this sem... international tourism management..

hit rock bottom...

yeah.. this the type of feeling that i have now.. as if i jus hit the bottom of a well? might as well get a concussion.. haiz..

jus finish my BH227 selection and assessment paper.. it seemed easy.. and the course is interesting and i like it alot.. but i realised i did most of the questions wrongly.. boohoohoo :'( out of the first 10 mcq qn, i got 2 wrong already.. the 3 questions tt follow tt carry wif it 30 marks each.. i think i can barely scrape past the passing mark.. i misinterprete the questions, i got the whole concept wrong, and my ans to the 2nd and last question sound the same.. and wat else did i not do correctly?!?

its really a disaster.. how can i describe it.. maybe its jus indescrible ba.. i really REALLY wanna do well for dis paper.. cos i really like this module alot.. and i really longed for as A grade to appear on my result script.. i have nv in my uni life this far got an A.. and i really longed for one.. and i know my parents wld wan mi to hav tt too.. and this mod is the most probable one for mi to get an A grade.. and now i can jus tt kiss the A grade goodbye.. it really breaks my heart when i see everyone so happy after the exams and comparing ans.. and for mi to realise that practically every qn i did was wrong.. how bad can it get?!? arghh..

hiaz.. shant go on wif it.. jus hope miracle do happen ba.. and tt i can do well in my next paper (which is rather difficult cos got a C for my report already..) haizz..

2nd posting for the dae..

tt described how bored im!! now in free access lab.. takin a break from readin SnA in the NBS readin room.. haizz. wasnt too productive.. maybe cos im already braindrained adter this morning's paper..

was blog browsing, and came upon wt's blog again.. she put up music!! ger teach mi how to put music up!! teach mi teach mi!! hehehe.. anywae, the hols gg to here soon.. maybe shall ask boon or edwin yeye to organise some kind of outings.. since they are so free cos they are gg to ord soon! hahaa.. mi learning the art of delegating.. and empowerment.. muahaha.. and was thinkin of gg overseas.. my mom's fren is gg to korea, and my sis's frens are gg taiwan.. jus feel like gg on a hol b4 i dun even have the chance to.. cos maybe takin up an intern during next hols and gg start work next yr after grad.. (provided i can find a job la..) was tokin to my parents over the weekends and think im halfwae thru success in pursuading them to bring mi overseas. maybe new zealand, maybe canada ( can go n find my dad's fren..) or maybe some far far countries.. but stil, no concrete plans yet.. jus tokking and stuff.. haiz hiaz.. i shall try harder.. haha.. maybe gg when the PA ends.. and skip the first week of sch.. muahaha.. how nice :P

alrite.. shall get back to stardee.. else will seem so slack!! hahaa..

sunshine after the rain...

haha. or rather, peace after the war.. spend the past 2 and 1/2 hours battling in the battlefield of questions and the whole of last night muggin (scanning through the pile of readings) jus for the paper today.. was in total panic yesterday cos i was unable to finish all the readings.. though i tried to spot questions, it was nevertheless on the safer side to study all the chapters.. and thus, there i was, tryin to browse through the readings and highlight all the important points..

felt like giving up in the middle cos the amount of readings left seemed too much for mi to take it, but stil persevere on wif the encouragements from several frens.. thks pple.. =) but wat made mi veri pissed and ended up wif a headache was the fact that my fren actually give some nonsense nick on his msn.. pls fren, if u wanna do all this crap, ad least dun do it during exam period.. pple are panickin and there u are, tokin nonsense.. give mi a break la.. and stop all these crap.. and mind u, im not ya gf.. give mi my deserved freedom.. for goodness.. (haiz.. dun think he will read this, but jus have to find an outlet to let the steam out!! argh!!) haiz haiz.. slept ad 330am when i realised that my concentration level had hit 0% and i kept noddin off to sleep while readin the notes.. so i decided to turn in ad tt time.. but woke up ( rather reluctantly) ad 630 to continue reading.. left some unimportant chapts untouched ad tt time elin came to pick mi up to go for breakfast and exams ad src..

was havin the exam in hall E in src.. and pple, if u all are havin exams there in the future.. remember to bring jackets along.. its COLD there.. brrr... once the exams started, i was practically copying the whole of the reports done by the students into my answer booklet!! without even rephasing.. dere's not enuff time for mi to do tt too.. though i wish i cld.. and so i copy copy and copy.. wasnt able to finish all the questions.. and left part of the last question untouched.. but well, i guess i wont be able to flunk the paper totally..(cross my fingers) and by the time i finish the exams, my fingers were practically numb.. and i really feel tt i nid a Osim massager right now!! to change the OOooohs to Aaaahhhs!! (doesnt this sound familiar?!?) hahaha..

dint join elin and co. for lunch ad JP, cos it wld be a hassel to get back to hall again after tt.. so here im bloggin.. and guess i shall now go and get my well deserved sleep!!

in total despair..

boohoohooo.. i think i cant finish readin political econs already.. my productivity is sooooooooooo low when i come back home and study.. i onli managed to finish readin a 6page notes jus now.. and i took the whole of the morning to do it!! OMG!! and i stil have a stack of notes for mi to go thru.. arghh.. i dun wanna flunk this module.. and i guess i have to prepare myself well for it cos mi and my frens were the few 2nd yr students among the sea of 3rd yr acc students.. and they are really good in the subject.. they tok with 'substance'!! haiz haiz.. this is bad..
wake up, ger.. step on the accelerator!!! easier said dan done.. =(

y muz there always hav a title here?

listening to... destiny's child- brown eyes

did i get the song title rite? wasnt sure.. but i jus dl it anywae.. and the song is the same tune as SHE 'nian ren wei man'.. but it sound so weird to listen it in english.. haha

haiz.. dint really have the mood to study today.. was totally mentally drained after the paper in the afternoon.. hehee.. and the good news is, the paper was quite easy.. not tt difficult, and most of the questions tt i spotted came out.. so was quite heng today.. ^^ later in the evening, had dinner wif my sis.. and after tt, surfing and blogs reading.. so eng lo.. nothing better to do.. dun seem to be one who's havin exams right now.. :P

was quite surprised tt kl and his buddy came up and look for mi wif a cake.. bought from.. let mi see.. Bengawan solo!! lighted candles somemore.. dint expect all these actually.. thank you guys.. =) then after tt, when to readin room to study.. was expecting quite alot of pple stayin to pia for exams.. but it turn out the opposite.. not much pple.. and the room was relatively silent.. and was quite glad i tried and finished readin almost 1 lecture.. yay!!! shall go there late ad nite.. if there's still chance to.. had ba cho mee for supper.. quite sinful.. but im really hungry.. haizz.. shall force myself to go swim after the exams.. missed swimming though.. haiz hiaz

hahaa.. qute sian now.. but i dun feel sleepy although its already 337AM!!! maybe its the food..
haiz, feel like puttin a tag board here.. cos feelin like nobody's readin my blog!!! ad least wif a tag board, there's some form of communication.. but wonder how to add one to my blog.. shall go n reky later.. nwae, was browsin thru wt's blog.. and chance upon a personality test..guess the results are the same for everyone lo.. but some of the things are really true.. hehe.. while others are not.. wonderin if these tests were ever tested for its reliability and validity.. okokies.. shall not flaunt my stuff here..

did some reflections these few daes.. cos was always studyin.. den too bored le.. so spend the time reflecting my life, plannin wat i wan in the future.. and bext of all.. daydream.. haha
realise tt im quite an extrovert online and an introvert offline.. i wonder y this is so.. maybe cos i fear to see the -ve facial expression on their face if i said or did sth wrong?? im not sure of tt oso.. maybe cos if im not close to the person, i dun tok much.. but if im veri close to the person, i can tok, crap and wat hav u.. haha.. yeah.. i think tt's mi..
recently my fren posted mi this qn during lesson.. (yeah.. during lesson.. he got nothing better to do lo.. dan to matchmake mi to some of his frens..) he asked if i longed for a bf?? haha.. apparently, i jus smiled and ignore him la.. cos deep down inside, i dun really noe the ans.. yesh.. i do admit tt i sometimes longed for someone;s to be there specially for mi.. to listen to me tok, crap.. and to joke.. to cheer mi up when im down..and be there to console mi, and lend a shoulder for mi to cry on.. to lean on.. haizz.. but too bad.. there's none.. maybe cos i dunno how to grab hold of opportunities.. and make the wrong decisions ad times.. takin the wrong directions..and when i regret, its too late.. :'( or maybe cos i got a too high expectations?? i jus wish for some nice person who will love mi as im, to be there when i nid him to.. and hav no problem communicating.. is this so difficult?? maybe fate have yet arrive ba.. haizz..

shant go on wif tt.. shall stop broodin over it.. shall go n zzz le.. its so late already.. 457AM.. goodnites.. tml im gg home.. yay.. home sweet home~

hApPy 21st birtHdAe!!

listening to.. Bon Jovi- It's my life

hehee.. shall jus post sth here. so tt ,13th of april, dis date can appear here.. =) well, dis dae is jus like any other dae.. spent most of the time mugging for my ge exam tml.. haha.. i finally noe wats the ge im takin call!! its environmental changes and ecosystem in balance.. quite a slack module for attending lesson, but a veri dry subject to study for exams.. its bascially geog+chem+bio.. so boring.. received lots of bdae wishes ad ard the stroke of 12am.. thank you thank you.. and was indeed veri surprised tt debbie actually called mi from HK to wish mi tt.. thank you so much.. and yeah, im veri touuched!! well, luckily i went out for dinner ad jp's swensen wif rayner.. thank you so much for tt treat.. spend most of the time chatting.. it definitely change my ah beng's perception of him.. yeshyesh.. he's not one in the first place :P.. hahaha.. well, ad least making my dae not tt boring afterall.. else i wld hav classify this bdae as the most boring bdae i ever had.. =)

so bored!!!

have been spending so much time in the lib these daes, tryin to mug.. haizz. life so boring when it comes to studyin for exams.. y muz there be exams?!?!? i jus cant understand.. well, some pple jus dun hav the HUGE memory space to 'store' all the essential data.. so when go into the exam hall, they jus wont perform well.. others will get so panicky tt they forgot what they remember.. it will be so so so so UNFAIR to base so much marks on the exams.. haizz.. y dont they jus scrape the exams?? i reallly hate it!!! =(

okiess.. shdnt bored u all wif all my complaints.. shall post some pix tt i capture from the dvd tt yeye bought for mi.. BoA-best of soul.. seriously, im pretty amazed by how this young ger can sing, dance and do all this with her silky long hair without gettin messy!! haha..

the sizzling her..

the sexy BoA..

the demure BoA..

dancing to the beat..

BoA wif permed hair.. for a change..

lady in white..

...the rocker..

the serious side of her..

the BoA who is full of energy..

woah.. superb!

.. isnt she jus wonderful?

and the 'angelic' BoA

bz week..

this was a really busy week. rushing reports and powerpoint slides.. but took some time out to celebrate by bdae wif the venus gers..

on tues, we went to elin's hse to type the report of BH225.. was doing alot of formatting and referencing.. after which, we went to northpoint to watch miss congenienty 2.. well, we took a cab down cos we were running late.. too engrossed in formatting the report.. haa. ms congenienty 2 is great.. damn funnie.. the cinema was not veri filled wif pple. but it was filled wif our laughters.. esp sini's!! hahaha.. but really, i think tt movie is great.. a truely great show if u wanna watch sth to destress.. after the movie, we went back to woodlands and had dinner ad jack's place wif steph joinin us... was my first time eating there.. felt the ambience was great.. even got candles lo.. haha.. took some pix.. and muz realy thank the venus gers for buyin mi a slice of chocolate cake.. yummy.. and they sang mi a bdae song. hehe..thank you gers!!!

well, tt's the fun part.. den comes fri.. the presentation dae.. got 2 presentations tt dae.. but onli needed to present for 1 of it.. and i flop it!! OMG!!! can u believe that i burst out laffing when i was presenting??? arghhh.. cant believe tt i did tt lo.. making a fool out of myself.. :'( haizz. hope the prof dun mark mi down on this though.. else i guess i will hate myself for tt.. tt was unintentionally(well, who will do it intentionally??) think i was too nervous. and when i was presenting, i could feel myself shivering.. its cold.. veri cold.. and i cld feel my legs shaking!!! (shd not hav wore tt heels next time) and i burst out laffin like tt.. haizz.. wat a thing to do!!

haizz. but think its over for now.. shall concentrate on studyin now.. tokin abt studyin, the exams is less than 2 weeks from now!!! arghhh.. okokiess. enuff crap.. shall go n study after i uploaded some pix! =)

BH227: zc, alicia, ql, fangmin

BH225: ql, fion, Dr V.Ho, gina, elin, sini

mi making bdae wishes.. hope it will come true =)

wif the venus gers ad jack's place