Emotional Outburst

a day that i thought i could enjoy the peacefulness of the office and clear my stuff before shifting down next Wed, it turned out to be a day that made me went home with a stomach filled with anger..

as we (the temps and those on contracts) were the only ones in our division in office today, we were naturally arrowed to do stuff on behalf of the perms (in their absense). Ok, fine.. but the things for us to do needa be convincing in the first place.. pls, how will u expect people to come and attend a briefing cum interview at 3.30 when u wan us to call them in the morning on the same day.. even to the extent that at 12 plus, 1.. its not even logical! the hit rate would be so low.. seriously, if its me, i wont even come for the briefing cos there's not even enuff time for me to prepare and get out of the house! but there again, i cant sae much cos its' an order passed to us yeterdae by big boss.. fine.. follow instructions and nobody turned up for the briefing at 3.30.. waited till 430, still no pple.. the project coordinator (who was a perm that was onli newly recruited and tokked arrograntly) sms me and 'instructed' us to do more callings, to try and see if pple will attend a session tml! and asked us to come down tml (a sat) to help out.. her sms really got us so frustrated and angry.. it wasnt a nice sms! its like instructions! pls.. y wld we sacrifice our sat jus for sth that we knew yield zero outcome and at such short notice? and oso the temps has spent the past few days calling hundreds of pple to which only less than 10 people showed an interest! guessed the time i took to reply that sms was too slow, so big boss called me and asked.. told us they really hope to get more people to come for briefing, and hope that we all can do OT today till 8 plus 9! and come back again tml whole day and do calling and help out! it really gotten into me! this thing was so last min, and last min things dun yield results! but obviously big boss's orders cant be defied.. so fine, me and another 2 temps agreed to come tomorrow, but only for half a day.. it was 5plus then.. and really, all the frustrated us have no intention of doing OT, so packed our stuff and ready to leave.. but at 530, the project coord called me and asked if we are gg to do OT today? i said no, cos all of us are unavailable.. and she jus say, big boss ask u all do OT watz.. my blood was boiling and so i jus told her off that it was so last min and she cant possibly expect us to drop our appointments to do OT! guessed i spoke in a rather pissed manner that my temps and contract colleagues (who are equally frustrated) can see im REAL angry.. so she got my tone, and was fine with us not doing OT.. but wat she said next was like.. eh.. simply irresponsible.. she said, 'u all coming in tml morning right? u all do the callings and see if anyone will turn up for the briefing in the afternoon. we (the perms themselves) will be in in the afternoon. but if no one is interested in turning up, sms me and we wont be coming in the afternoon!' WAT????? i simply repeated wat she said to me back to her in a sacastic manner.. and luckily she got it..

this whole thing, though resolved in a rather good manner cos in the end as we dun need to turn up tml, was like simply uncaring! they (the perms) are outside at furama hotel for a meeting, leaving us in the office and expecting us to perform on behalf of them! and the fact is, us, the ones on contracts will not be in the company anymore from next weds.. for us, there's no nid for us to commit anything, and wat i did was jus helping out of goodwill and u cant expect me to be in office on a sat to help u when u perms jus enjoy ya sats! there's not even enuff days left for me to claim my time off! and the fact that there's so much things for us to do and so little people to do it is all cos of the reorg that made most of the temps left the company! u can’t expect a person to call like 100 plus people a day! we are not a call centre! seriously, im really there in the office cos i have to there.. yesh, it will seem to be not a nice way to put it.. but really, i started in the company with lotsa drive and enthusiasm.. but with the mismanagement of our feelings in the process of the reorg and the contract thing, things simply turns so.. eh.. sianz.. jus hope things will get betta, though it dun really look any promising but shall jus hope.. quite difficult to understand how im feeling now, but for a near perfectionist me, it a bitter pill to swallow in this type of circumstances..

okies, a long post.. jus felt like letting out the steam..

a loooong holiday

last wed - MC
Fri - Time off
Sat, Sun - No work
Mon - Time off

that's a long holiday.. but too bad, i wasnt able to be out of Singapore, though i wish to be out on REAL holiday.. it was time for me to sleep all i can everydae, let all the sickness go away (obviously, it dint really go away cos the cold keep coming back to me), awaiting the arrival of new furnitures and tidying my *new* room =)

was out with sini, gina and debbie on sat.. a *ahem* long dinner at ichiban boshi again followed by chill out at indochine.. but this time round, we dint go for our usual beer or volka/rum.. we go for white wine - terrazas.. recommended by sini, which i think its not a bad choice.. =)

sun was an*EYE-OPENER* for me at vivocity.. it was super duper crowded and it was as if things there were free!! jus take the example of the candy empire.. the one at millenia walk is always empty but the one at vivocity is so crowded that things on the shelves were nearly empty! and if u all are intending to go to the GV theatres to watch any movies, pls bring ya winter wear.. cos its FREEZING cold in there.. trust me.. haha.. cos i came out shivering like crazy.. lolz but the seats are spacious, and its surround sound.. quite a good experience..

okiess, tml is another dae slackin in office.. no boss, no pple.. jus us.. contract pple and temps.. *yay!*

terrazas - cheers!

7 sisters unite! ^^

@ ichiban *yum*

Cheers!

Team D =)

farewell gifts for boss - cufflinks & card

on our way home...

jus getting by..

when motivation cease, everything jus become meaningless.. working hours seem to become super lengthy and difficult to pass for the past 1 week, and I woke up everydae thinkin of whether i shd apply for leave or MC.. everything seem jus to be so not-important since it wont concern me in the near future. wat i really look forward everydae is knockin off work on time, be it just gg home, or gg out with frens...

nwae, my very nice boss left us on friday, gg back to his original workplace tml.. *sobz* we had a farewell dinner for him on thurs at Marina south.. steamboat! (my suggestion ^.^) it was a nice gathering i shd sae, minus the fact that some of us were choking on the smoke quite often.. (fotos to be uploaded later) hope he do like our gift for him, and wish him all the best back on his job.. =)

sat was another great day when i met up with my 'sister'.. with debbie and sini back for US, the 7 sisters finally united! met up at 4 for a coffee session at TCC, a long sharing chit chatting session cum dinner at ichiban boshi @ esplande and finally 4 of us went for a chill out at the corner pub at millenium walk(forgot the name of the pub).. though i was burnt out when i reached home at ard 1 plus.. it was so good to meet up after so long.. *cheers* (photos, again, will be uploaded later.. sini, kindly share the photos taken ^^)

fated

i think its fated tt my life is not as smooth going.. hiccups do occur every now and then.. sometiMes i feel life really sux to the core.. be it previously in studies, or now at work.. or even in my personal life tt i dun wan to think back abt.. wat has i done wrong to deserve all these?

though i can sae when i dont do well in studies, its partly my fault.. but when it comes to work, i simply tried my best.. and do wat im supposed to do.. but when a change is being implemented, it jus had to go thru, no matter who and how many pple tt will be affected, no matter how many pple's future will be put on stake, and how many wishes and hopes tt was dashed.. all cos it was a directive from the top.. I think none can understand the hard punch tt the reality gave me.. how painful it was! and with the pain, its full of regrets! if i had not came to this company, and accepted another offer long ago, i shd have been earning a stable income since may! if i had not came to this company, i shd not have waited for so long for tt simple one contract tt only came a day before a reorg was announced! had i not came to this company, i would not feel so lost.. now tt i would be transfered out of co to another co down few storeys!

but if i were to look on the brighter side, if i had not come to this co, i would not had came to know so many nice colleagues and to know such a nice boss.. and of cos shuai ge oso.. lolz.. it was afterall a good learning and working experience for me..

though wat lies infront of me will not be a bed of roses, esp without such a good boss and fellow team members to shield me from all the badies, i will jus had to accept all tt and take it in my stride.. it will be something hard for me to swallow and digest..